Reawakening

Last week was rough. I was struggling with back pain and a massive headache. It is hard to say what brought either of them on. We decided to give up sweets and alcohol for the month of June. It is possible, I suppose, that doing so contributed to the headache. The back pain is harder to identify. It started slight and got progressively worse. At one point I decided that yoga would help loosen things up and reduce the pain. Sadly, it seemed to make things worse. By Thursday I couldn't walk without pain. I found myself missing very simple things and wondered why I worried about being in shape, eating and drinking too much, etc. All I wanted to do at that point was to be able to walk without pain.

This morning I awoke without a headache for the first time in 3 or 4 days. It was such a relief. And, my back pain is much more subtle. It no longer hurts to stand up after sitting for a period of time. So little of my life is actually spent in pain. I am grateful for that! I feel for those who experience it daily and have no relief in sight. Today I feel like I have a new lease on life and I am excited! It is like a reawakening.

What I am experiencing are the ebbs and flows of life's energy. It is hard to pinpoint when things switch direction. And, it seems to me, the pandemic has made it even more difficult. Life is close to getting back to 'normal'. Although, the closer we get the more confusing it gets, at least to me. Working for hours on end in my bedroom no longer makes sense. It feels very confining. I miss face to face interactions and being in an office setting. At least on some level. I'm so curious to how we transition back to life once we are given the go ahead to do so. Each outing these days seems like a novelty. Being with people and in public places is more special.